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Acoustic versions of things
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80s....
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[Thursday
March 29th, 2007 at 2:50am
]
so yeah

aim
psychokilrchk

silkroad
ohcysp
CMNT

[Saturday
December 9th, 2006 at 6:54pm
]
annoyance
why is it that I can't do anything right?
I mean seriously
GAH
I fail
yes emo moment
go to hell
3 // CMNT

[Wednesday
September 20th, 2006 at 6:53pm
]
its so hot...i almost passed out at work....
CMNT

[Tuesday
September 19th, 2006 at 1:58pm
]
Fuck what you call truth
I'm drowning in a sea of your lies
Dont try to cover it up
because I can see it all now
through this overflowing glass
everything in magnified
your lies have blown up far from what you originally wished them to be
but you don't care
its your own little catastrophe
talk your way out of this one sweetness
Try to explain away the bodies you have buried beneath your sheets
the tears that are filling up this room
the fact that the moment this door is opened
people will die because of this
no longer shall this be kept hostage
'and flowing forth shall it ever be....'


Don't test me
2 // CMNT

[Saturday
July 22nd, 2006 at 3:40pm
]
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

I miss somebody right now. I don't watch much TV these days. I own lots of books.
× I wear glasses or contact lenses.  (I'm supposed to) I love to play video games. I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies.  (everyone has once) I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.  (sometimes? ha) I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.  (not ALWAYS but sometimes)
it goes on...Collapse )
1 // CMNT

[Friday
July 7th, 2006 at 1:15pm
]






Which Endless are you?




Dream, the third of The Endless, you are in charge of the Dreaming, all imagination and creativity, everyone knows your beautiful realm, but none truly understand it. You are dark and brooding, creative, and spend a lot of time by yourself, just thinking. You are almost as serious as Destiny, but not quite. Everyone is enchanted by you, but you keep them all at a distance, even when you shouldn't.
Take this quiz!








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1 // CMNT

[Friday
June 23rd, 2006 at 9:52am
]
mmm I love warp tour yes I do
i love from first to last!
gah so many bands
such greatness
3 // CMNT

[Friday
June 2nd, 2006 at 12:59am
]
being sick sucks
the end
3 // CMNT

[Tuesday
May 16th, 2006 at 11:46pm
]
tiffany v should die
korie hilliard too
thats all
3 // CMNT

[Saturday
May 13th, 2006 at 1:12pm
]
is this really me?




A rebel with and without a cause, you belong to the clan of the Brujah. This clan is the muscle of the Camarilla and are always up for fights. However, you are difficult to control...especially since you tend to frenzy easier than most vampires. You are /the/ clan not to piss off or expect a missing limb.

What Vampire Clan Do You Belong To?


meh....
anyway I haven't really been on here in a while
trying to catch up with people's lj will be hard...
I'm heading off to work for another night

GRADUATION FRIDAY!

I'll catch up on ljs leave comments and love prolly tomorrow
2 // CMNT

[Monday
April 17th, 2006 at 8:29pm
]
remembering old times
smiles
and little whispers

then

lack of speaking
cold actions
the abscence of you
the loss of me

whatever happened to
forever?
2 // CMNT

[Tuesday
April 11th, 2006 at 8:49pm
]
LOUIS ARMSTRONG
LMFAO
3 // CMNT

KATIE SUCKS TACO BELLS COCK [Sunday
April 9th, 2006 at 2:59am
]
that is all
3 // CMNT

[Saturday
April 8th, 2006 at 12:58am
]
what the fuck is this shit people post on myspace now?

Apr 7, 2006 8:34 PM
Subject: Why I Dont Eat Pussy? To Many Instructions!
Body: 95% of females can't cum from sex UNLESS, they're on top..and they're on top why? so they can stimulate their clit..by doin' their lil snake charm grindin' grab on our pelvic bones..which..really does nothin' for us..so the key is..eat pussy first..make her cum a few times...numb her up..then hammer away or soft and slow with alot of vaginal teasing with your magic stick to build it all up in the end, however u like...... now once ur inbetween her legs..don't just fuckin' dive in there like a bum at a thanksgiving charity dinner...take your fuckin'time I know pussy is nearly irresistable...but don't act like it is.. lick her inner thighs, kiss them..kiss around her pussy lips..kiss the lips etc. etc..finally once u've got your tongue on her clit..this is what u do..(u can use ur hands to spread her lips here if u want..that's all preference...it's easier to make em cum w/their lips spread..so u have easier access to their clit) now...roll the tip and somewhat flat part of your tongue around the clit in a circular motion...slowly...DONT STOP...the KEY is to hold your rhythm...listen to homegirls breathin'..use this as feedback..and react w/your tongue accordingly..you want her breathin' to be steady...at a steady pace..kinda like a clock...tick tock tick tock tick tock...it sounds lame but she should be breathin' on beat...no. not MOANING..breathing...listen to her breathin'...listen to the moans when ur on the phone or somethin'...now the key is...DONT STOP (I emphasize this, cuz it's important...if u STOP GO STOP GO haphazard like, you're not gonna get anywhere)...DONT STOP..even if it's to pick a hair outta ur mouth...just hold your rhythm..circle her clit...increase speed gradually...once u've got the speed up a bit...and her breathin' is tellin' u on target..use more of the tip of ur tongue...and move it less...but at a slightly faster pace...basically work ur way into..flickin' it back n forth like a punching bag..it's hard to explain..but it's kinda like vibratin' your tongue..not swayin' it back n forth like a wreckin' ball..slappin' her clit as you swoosh by..if u can keep this up for atleast 60 seconds...she'll cum..if she's stubborn and won't bust..get a finger or two up inside her..hook ur finger(s)..and kinda "scratch""scrape""tickle""massage" her Gspot..which feels like a lil sponge..it's on the "ceiling" of her pussy..inside..and up top.. about an inch in.. consider your fingers holdin' the harmony..while your tongue works the melody...and she'll bust before u know it.. good..you've succeded..now the worst thing u can do now..is STOP..keep fuckin' goin..this is the good part..if u ignore her pants, rants, and gestures for u to stop..and keep goin' like she hasn't busted..(she'll initially want u to stop cuz she's all madd sensitive at the moment)..after 10-15 seconds, the sensitivity for her will fade..and about a minute later..yes A MINUTE..she'll bust again..so do it again and again and again until she declares you the winner....the only way to know you did a good job is by getting served seconds thirds fourths and fifths

all I have to say is why
yes i posted this so i wasn't the only to read it lol
3 // CMNT

[Friday
April 7th, 2006 at 11:56pm
]
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

Chorus:
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be your love suicide
and I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above

Repeat Chorus

I've been dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, Remembered the things that you said

Repeat Chorus
CMNT

[Wednesday
April 5th, 2006 at 9:58pm
]
You know me, I used to get caught up in everyday life
Tried to make it through my day so i could sleep at night
Tried to figure out my way through the maze
Of rights and wrongs, but like you used to say
Nothing feels like it's really worth it
Forget perfect, i'm trying not to be worthless
Since i last saw you i been lookin for a purpose
Well i met this kid who thought like i did
He had a weird way of lookin at it
This is what he said

Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you dont wana be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared
Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you dont wana be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

I dont remember where i met him or remember his name
But he walked funny like he was too big for his frame
Just over five foot but he weighed a buck fifty
And what he said just seemed so right it stuck with me
Listen its like poker you can play your best
But you got to know when to fold your cards and take a rest
And know when to hold your cards and hold your breath
And hope that nobody else is stacking the deck because
I dont need to tell you that life isnt fair, it doesnt care
It arbitrarily cuts off your air, and like you i want someone to
say its okay
But in the truest parts of our hearts everybody's afraid
But just underappreciated and overwhelmed
Fighting so hard to hide our fear that were scaring ourselves
You understand when im saying that you always did
But its different in the words of a cowardly kid

Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you dont wana be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared
Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you dont wana be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

Im no hero, you remember how i was, you know
All i ever did was worry, feeling out of control
To the point where everything was going end over end
Im spinning around in circles again
This is where you come in
All of this to explain to you why
I had to separate myself away from yesterday's life
Please remember this isn't how i hoped it would be
But i had to protect you from me
Thats why i slipped out the back before you knew i was there
I know you felt unprepared
But every single time i was around i just bring you down
And i could tell that it was time to be scared
Thats why i slipped out the back before you knew i was there
And i know the way i left wasnt fair
I didnt want to be around just to bring you down
Im not a hero but dont think i didnt care
CMNT

[Tuesday
April 4th, 2006 at 11:53pm
]
Let me know that I've done wrong
When I've known this all along
Go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

I'll Keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Who has to know

When we live such fragile lives
It's the best way we survive
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

I'll Keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Who has to know

The way she feels inside (inside)
Those thoughts I can't deny (deny)
These sleeping dogs won't lie (won't lie)
And all I've tried to hide
It’s eating me apart
Trace this life out

I'll Keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret)

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Dirty little secret
Dirty little secret

Who has to know?
who has to know?
CMNT

[Tuesday
April 4th, 2006 at 11:43pm
]
Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calendar I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(Why can't I turn off the radio?)

When I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
(So tired of tears)
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(Why can't I turn off the radio?)

I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(Why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?
CMNT

[Monday
April 3rd, 2006 at 11:22pm
]
<td align="center"> Amber --
[adjective]:

100% kinky

'How will you be defined in the sexual dictionary?' at QuizUniverse.com</td>
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[Tuesday
March 28th, 2006 at 10:55am
]
I feel ever so lost
I wish I knew who you were talking about her bein' jealous about
and I prey to god it isn't me
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING To make her mad this time :(

anyway
arizona is oki
got my hair cut and a lil dyed
I don't like the streaks of brown they put it in
till it fades I will be wearing it up

Its been cloudy out here
looks like no tan for me :(
/tear

I think I'm gaining weight, they're all shovelling orgasmic food down my throat lol

i have my cell on me if you deperately need to talk to me

I miss you guys

muah
5 // CMNT

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